Who's calling the shots around here?

At the core of my being, I consider myself to be a builder and a scientist.

I build products, technologies, and teams that help humans be better, and I create experiments to test my wild assumptions and hypotheses about the ever-changing world we live in.

I have noticed recently that I have been allowing my Human to be calling the shots with some of my experiments. I wrote yesterday about a major change to that. Let me explain.

My Human optimizes for moment to moment pleasure and pain avoidance with a very short term focus. My Higher Self only wants one thing: to actualize my potential within this lifetime.

With my Human at the helm, my experiments often result in falsified data.

For example, about a year ago I tried banishing alarm clocks and normal sleep schedules from my life. I would go to bed when I felt exhausted, and I would wake up naturally when my body was well rested. To my Human, this was incredible. Total sleep freedom. To my Higher Self, it was a hot mess. No schedule, no consistency, no rhythms, no structure. Every day was an adventure, which is certainly exciting but definitely not optimized for getting shit done.

When I'm out of alignment, the wisdom of my Higher Self gets diminished and the voice of my Human wins.

I'm realizing that I have done this with so many things. Work, diets, exercise, distractions, video games, finances, relationships. The list goes on and on.

When I run these micro experiments from an unaligned place, its easy for my Human to justify the results to be more focus on the here and the now. Now, there was nothing wrong with letting my Human run these experiments. At the time, I'm sure I needed more sleep or craved distractions. My Human has got my back. I know that.

This simple yet profound awareness explains so much of the inner conflict that has been present recently. I am past the stage of needing the protection of my Human. What a beautiful gift to have my Human know exactly what was needed when it was needed. Thank you.

Now it's time though to let the Higher Self back in the driver's seat so we can make it rain abundance on the whole damn planet.