Why is it so easy to break commitments?

It only took 9 days into my commitment of publishing a post every day before I broke that commitment.

I had a full day with early morning meetings until a dinner meeting late night. I didn't intentionally break my commitment. It honestly slipped my mind until the next day when I realized I hadn't wrote anything.

Once I missed that first day of writing though, it was an integrity check for me that I struggle with. At that time, my blog posts weren't public yet, as I was publishing them behind the scenes. I could very easily have written two blog posts that next day, changed the date on one and then moved on as if nothing happened.

But that didn't feel good. So I didn't. Instead I stopped writing for 11 days until I finally decided that I wanted to start posting again, not try to play catchup and hid my break of commitment, and just roll with it.

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For me in this situation, it could be said that I wasn't fully committed. It could also be that I was trying to force myself into this new behavior. Or any other number of reasons or excuses why I didn't follow through.

At the end of the day, I didn't have the right structure in place to follow through with my commitment. I didn't have a plan for what to do when I didn't write first thing in the morning. And before you know it, the day was over.

Keeping to our commitments is a matter of integrity, something that I hold in the highest regard. In this matter, it's not a big deal. The world moves irregardless of my 11 day absence.

More importantly, I allowed my "keeping commitments muscle" to get a little weaker. Time to put in more work in the gym, build the habit of publishing every day and hold my commitments to a higher standard.